i cant forgive you.
for blaming me anyohow when u yourself did nothing.
for treating me like nothing when i needed you to console me the most.
for making me hate u .

i know you won't feel a pinch even if u see this. but. i am jus going to write it out.
being with you is just like taking a rollarcoaster ride.going through ups and downs. just that the downs were more.but still, i enjoy. being with you cause. i know. u are a nice person.but all these. its really enough. i've said this alot of times. i wanna give up. i am going to give up. but. i jus cant.

i cant be best friends with a person without a heart. cause i am myself a veri emotional person.but,i tried to . i really tried to . change myself. to be oblivious like you . to be as ignorant like you. but i cant. im just not you. i tried my very best. to treat you the best. out of all my friends. but. its all futile.i cannot. i cannot. i cannot. i cannot give you up now. i keep saying that to myself.ah, its jus hard.

now, im just like a freak. a human without a true heart. a living zombie. like you. or mayb what i think of you. during the quietest of nights. i wished. i wished that u were there to talk my heart out with me.but. u were never dere. you never ever cared about how i felt. try recalling the last time. u sat down and chatted with me. about things that really mattered to me. and to my heart. to my feelings.

i think its enough said. u have letters from me . alot of them.but never was i so truthful about how i felt about u . and wad i think about you.the 200th post on my dearie blog was supposed to be reserved for u. praising our friendship. but now.

u mayb be my best fren, but im nt urs. tts sad. =)I never regretted knowing you as my best fren. but just let it end here.